Slow, slow, so dam slow

As that which is all things, causes some of us to change, I realize that the more years you have been on this rock, the more uncomfortable (this re growing pains are). You all seek what is in your hand, it is not only all around you above and below, it is within , on ,and a big part of you! A way to find it and live a very long time, is to figure out how a female generates a new being, any female , any being? I am just a guilty as all of you, I spent ,40+ years seeking and found it, to be in my tap water. It seems to not take as long to get healthy as it took to age, but uggghhh...for an old being it would be uncomfortable. I think constantly of the completion of these stages, yet they do not seem to end, all it be a nine month turnaround? There are things which make the discomfort worthwhile, sort of.The abilities are interesting as they too mature, as this which is God, changes me. I have known since early childhood, that I was given a task by God, now it has become clearer, yet the abilities I will need, we all have, we just do not realize it.(no explain, not yet) My eyes now see some of that which we do not see, it is gradual, thanks God, so slow in this rhelm. Took me till now to begin to awaken. My current abilities are such that I need not be on the same continent to defend my self. I do not like it as it is dark and I do want to pursue joy and Happiness. Sone will recognize that, if it's an issue for you, I can make it ok...I did use it as darkness for a short while...I was learning, took some lives while learning, but you humans have not any laws, hmmm...you cannot even understand that which I have done! Of course there is no reason, it makes no sense. But they are gone. Sometimes, sometimes...I can feel the other rhelms, so close....The full moon seems to have it's truths, it is in all of our stories. Here is a tip...How come when Icebergs melt. The water is green at it's edges? That green water is not on man's table? To much like humans, they don't notice. What will happen, humans cannot stop, I have slowed it, but nothing can stop it, you would have needed to learn what the Myans knew, but you were to busy with greed. Even if you saw it today, it would likely be of little to no help to you. You search so valiently, with places like CERN, yet you cannot see what is at the top of your nose????wisdom of man????all the way to extinction. This Man