as I sit here and Change...I Pray

I know what the old stories say, the discomfort, how it is harder for the aged. I watch toes become pink and toenails need trimming again. I see some scares fade others whiten then fade. I buried my beast, sadly this also has requirements, I can tell with me, but my beast could not speak to me, so I had to watch very closely. One drop may be enough to revive something dead, but it would seem not always, I speak of plants here. There is a quantity required and it gets used up like fuel, I believe that with my beast, I could not observe enough what was occurring with him to know how much to give him, and as it turns out it was not enough. As any good Adept can tell you too much can be very traumatic as well, ALWAYS BALANCE. I have become aware of the shadows, they are everywhere here and no one notices. Humans cannot see the forest the trees are in the way. I used to be like that and did not know why certain things occurred, now not only do I know why, I can control them. saying that...being blocked is a much better option.... The morning discomforts, which I believe are related to, aged related weight gain reversal, are what they are, they do last a long time though. I believe I will vanish within the next 2 years, at least from all media except my blog, so join the blog if you want to follow beyond FB. I have some concerns, as there are things occurring which seem gray. No teachers, No one I have ever found has made it this far. I am always my only experiment, sometimes my lady comes along, my beast was sick and seemed to be dying so I gave him some, sadly that experiment failed. The heart of Light has not even begun, hang on humans you will need to. So much to remember.I believe we are being altered. As this renewal occurs the changes are such that, I often wonder if I am dying or being restored. Time will tell. They discomfort is more intense in the mornings.it is always stomach, but by mid day it is fine. It would be so Grand to have a teacher with this.Mistakes along the way are yucky, I miss my beast. I once said this was to cause us a lifestyle change, well it is a lot more than that. Something unique is occurring, and I just realized it. I will Publish a book in a few years, although I may have disappeared by then, and I will like FB use another name. In the book items like "Something unique is occurring, and I just realized it." Will be explained in Plain, as will the ArgoSpeak. I must always remember. "If I am wrong I will die." It is only water which I am consuming, so I take the shot, may be betting 20+ years for this bet, but as I win 20 years will be but a moment. Everything has a price. All Blessing All